everyday's sunday

Ugh my hair looks so terrible and i looks so ugg in the photos. Thanks humidity.

Missed me?
Singapore's been great so far apart from the horrid weather which makes me feel like i'm in an inferno. Its so hot nowadays i don't know how everyone takes it! Sean has been a great host, letting me have a piece of everything. Now that i'm back, i realise that i miss so much more than food. I actually miss the high rised buildings, the lights in town, the amount of people. Singapore just never makes one feels lonely, ever.

I caught a glimpse of the YOG closing ceremony and it was pretty grand. Missed the entire games i didn't even know they ended! I've met my girls for lunch and tea, had xlb and dinner with everyone, chicken wings with economy beehoon that totally excites your senses, had dinner at pu tien with my parents, my brother, his girlfriend, Zhehan and Sean to celetbrate their 2nd year anniversary.

I feel like leaving blogging for a while. My blog oozes boredom.

Home sweet home

KONICHIWA SINGAPORE!
I'll update soon!

On scene

Goodbye Subzero.


Only because it's still so raw and real. Soon I'll just be a series of images that sometimes flash through your mind, when you least expect it. And after that, only a few will stay. Then, one. A memory of a memory.
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I love the nostalgic feeling songs give you. In an instant memories flash through your mind, sometimes positive, other times otherwise. It could be a memory you've forgotten or one that you always want to cherish. As time goes by, times change, our memories coated with a layer of rust while they wait to wither away. Sometimes i wish all my memories could be stored into an external hard drive so i could watch them. It'll be like a movie already edited into different segments. Our minds so very much like faulty cameras.

Whats your most cherished memory?
Mmmm.

I'm saying goodbye to the cold for a week. I want the sun to eat me up and turn me to ashes. To brutally get burnt. Haha i want to get baked!
30 degrees, 4 seasons of summer, i'm coming!

Purple Sunday

As the days go by, i'm beaming with excitement! Felt pretty good to start my Sunday off with mass then an asian breakfast. Mmmm. Off to go to mount lawley in a bit to interview someone for our group's magazine story. Tomorrow's Monday, i've got a test. Wish me luck!






What keeps my lips chapped during winter! I love how sweet it tastes haha.


Managed to snag a couple of cupcakes from the batch my cousin made yesterday! My webcam sucks.

Alright, teerah!

Ground zero

The best time to reflect is when you like the person looking back.

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Well I haven't done a reflection in awhile so a little quote sparked me to do it.
I like the mood i'm reflecting today so, here it goes. There have been umpteen disappointments in life and sometimes I really do feel like everything is slowly crumbling in front of me but i can't feel it physically. The things i've said or done to anyone or to myself, the negligence, the selfishness, the hatred. Though this traits in life are inevitable, my apology stretches to anyone whom i've done wrong.

The many animosities i feel have piled up to a certain point it surpasses any figment of tolerance left. I know that everything happens for a reason but who are we to really make out those reasons? The mystery of how events change and how the people in them do, its marvels me. How deappreciation, greed, selfishness, love, hate, friendships can be the basic structures that make up who we are. This post doesn't have a conclusion really, its just how i feel about certain elements in life. What sparks a need or greed? How we never take others or the consequences into consideration. We know of the risks, but we choose to go to ground zero, to suffer and to face the consequences only for an experiement where chances are bleak. Why do we choose to suffer in that sense? Where has it gotten everyone?
They say greed can be a fear, being afraid to lose something or maybe everything. So we want more to cocoon ourselves, to shant whatever insecurities that may fill us away.

Its so puzzling. What influences us and how we are who we are because of all these events.
I think i'm rambling so much you must be thinking this is all gibberish. But has the effects of your traits ever occur to you?

I'm still marveled.
Its Friday, a few more...before i'm back!
I'm hungry, doritos here i come!

4 27

Look at the time and those hideous eyebadgs! My brain is exhausted from writing for hours and i'm doing things aimlessly.
My internet is finally back on, up and running.
I have so much to do with so little time! Hope you guys have an eventful weekend.
I look like crap.
Hahaha.

Thats to emphasize how crappy you can look from tripping your brain fuse and sleep deprivation.

Update!

That's the view from Melville park last Sunday when we were barbecuing!


Awww.






My cousin wanted to make rainbow cupcakes for two of her friends so i helped out!



Success :>




That’s us icing the cupcakes, my aunt took this haha.




Missed me? I miss the internet so much. I honestly have so much to update on!Thank you to those to still visit this domain. Well i’ve been out of the cyber world for awhile now cause the calculation of data usage here is retarded. I’ve finished my 6gb cause of skype which is sort of dumb considering how i’m an international student and we all need to call home. My mom has been so protective even though we’re thousands of miles away. She finds the time to skype me, almost every single day. We exchange emails on a daily basis and she asks the usual.

So how has school been? If you’d like to know. Its been great! I love how i only have classes 2 days a week and how my cores make so much sense to me. WA is boring after 5 and the sun sets at 6 so the nights are basically quiet. Tonight’s the first night i’ve actually cooked myself dinner. Continental chicken and vegetable rice with ham, corn, eggs and melted cheese. I was tempted to have my easy mac but, i’d save it for a lazier day. I can’t wait for the next week to fly by cause well ..i’ve been trying to contain my excitement but its bursting into bite size portions.

I’m..comi ng back for a week! :>

I miss all the authentic food. I miss the Singaporean accent. I miss the lights in town at night. I miss how the city never sleeps. I miss how there’s always ice cream nearby in the middle of the night. How my friends are all so easily available. Most of all, I miss home. I miss Hazel, my mom and dad, Susan, my brother, Jiayi, Xianwen, Sylvia, Jarl, Geraldine, Vinna, Sean :> , just everyonnneee! I can’t wait.
If there’s something i really miss in Singapore, Its definitely gotta be the internet and phone connections!

Sean has been so patient with me throughout the past mAonth i’ve been here and i’m so grateful. There have been times when i’m optimum anal but he’s always stuck by me. I love how he takes the trouble to call me and to ensure we last on the phone. How he bbms me everyday and every morning. I appreciate it babe.

Its a long day of school tomorrow, gonna go read up on my text a little.

mandatory-explanatory

I detest it when you try to explain yourself and nobody listens. You must have a point to prove in allowance to explaning yourself. Sometimes I just wanna explain how i'm feeling cause its bothering me, not to prove some shitty point. There are reasons why we feel terrible and in this particular case, your actions are the problem.

Just to remind you, all actions have concequences. You took the risk to burn it all and i took the risk to try and mend it back. You are doing your part. I honestly appreciate that. But once things go wrong the first time, you start to take precaution, you start to look out for yourself. I'm paying the price. The price you labeled. I'm not trying to make you feel bad but at least try to emphatize with me instead of saying, "Soooo. what's the point of this?" Have you ever considered how much it bugs me? Knowing that the trust i have in you isn't too in depth it makes it hard for me as well? Not everything revolves around you. I know my ramblings give you a hard time as well but i believe we're both part of this and we should try to at least resolve it even if its for the meanwhile. It's tedious having to explain myself time and time again. It's stupid to keep saying the same thing as if you haven't heard it over a thousand times already. But if it is so painful for you to bear, don't stay. I've never pinned you down on your knees threatening you to stay. You made choices that impacted you life before, so go ahead and take the wheel. Drive away if you want to. I'm not going to stop you cause i feel that you're given a choice in how much you want to tolerate.

I've tried to walk away so many times but you make me stay. I appreciate it, i don't dread it and no you're not forcing me. But sometimes just listen to me. Try to understand how tough it is on my part. Its easy for you to bury the hachet cause how has it hurt you? How has it affected you? Ask yourself that. Well for me, it taught me never to give your heart fully to someone you think you know, never to judge things from the surface and never to entrust all your trust in someone.


You did it. You listen to it.
I thought everything was good. I went through it. I'm living with it.

I made the choice.
However, am i not allowed to feel even a little dismay?
Whose calling permissions? Not you, not me.
So whose to restrict me? If you don't want to listen to me, don't alright.
Cause i'm prepared to make all ears and eyes bleed.
I'm not calling on whose blames or woes are heavier. I just want you to try and be me. Even for 1 second. Which we all know, its clearly impossible.
Sigh.

SUPRE SPREE

Hey everyone! I'm thinking of doing a supre spree so let me know if you're interested! comment below or on my twitter or fb!

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3s a charm

The colors reflected from your eyes paints the rainbow pale.
Significance, rememberance is all i need to keep you here with me.